There is a brief moment before you wake up where you have no recollection of anything. Yet after that moment passes, you are reminded of the things that fill your life, both the good and bad.
For me, since last year, I have been reminded each time that moment passes, that my mother is no longer here with me. I am reminded that my life has dramatically changed; reminded of all the sadness my heart is now full of.
Each day, I am reminded of how much I wish I could change the past; how much I miss her and my old life. And though it comes as a shock to me that a whole year has passed since she was still here, frankly, today is no different from the rest. It will always feel like just yesterday; no matter how much time passes, that she was still here and never left. No matter what day it is, I always miss her smile, her laugh, and all the things I can’t get back. I am forever reminded of our memories, our adventures, and every moment we ever had, but since then, I am also reminded of the angel I now have.
So today, though it marks a year, is just like any other day in my life. And though I will always miss you, thankfully,y I know one day we will meet again.
I love youMomom.
-Peanut
